Note:
40! I can't even believe it! Looking at previous posts and previous comments takes me down memory lane.. I need your comments and suggestions.. Thank you all.
Big love, C.B.
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Previously:
Amal: I couldn't wait until I got on the plane. A thousand miles away from the devil himself..
Khalid: I think I just lost the best thing I ever had..
S3eed: I have to know the truth..
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Amal:
One of the most depressing trips ever.
I looked up and saw the beauty of everything, but when I closed my eyes fear got the best of me. Everybody was tense and everybody had to be patient..
Khalid: Amal, are you okay?
Me: Hmm.. Yeah.
Khalid: Isn't this place great!?
Me: Aren't you scared? Aren't you mad?
The hospital back home wasn't the same. Sure it was depressing, but I enjoyed it there.. It was so gloomy here I couldn't handle it. Constant visits to the doctor, and when we were able to go out, it would already be too late.
Raindrops, cold, dark and foggy, I was only outside when the weather was horrible.
Khalid: It's okay, I'll be better soon. If not, I don't even care.
Father: Amal, you can go back to the hotel, your grandmother shouldn't be left alone..
Me: Sure..
I walked out and all that lit my way was the street lights.. Once I hopped out the bus, I heard thunder. I ran inside the hotel, inside I bumped into a tall guy..
Me: I'm sorry! I-
I looked up, and saw that wide, pearly white grin..
Me: 7amad!
7amad: Hahaha! Why are you all alone!?
Me: Umm.. Ahh long story! What, you're going out now? It's horrible outside!
My shoulders shrugged, I was rubbing my arms together in hopes of warming myself up again.
7amad: I know, I don't mind. I don't think you want to join me?
I shook my head no..
Me: Look!
I pointed at the lightening.
Me: Don't go! It's dangerous, and it's late.
7amad: Okay, okay.. I'll hang around in the lobby then.
Me: I'm all wet, I'll go change before I get sick.
It wasn't a big surprise to find him there. 3arab were everywhere in the hotel. Ladies with their dala walked around the halls frequently, who ever has the jdr would be serving dinner for the people who stayed in the entire hall.
Once I got to my room, I found, like, three old ladies sitting on the floor and yadoh was serving them coffee..
Out of nowhere, 3osha came running to me.
Me: Waaah!
I picked her up, but she pushed herself downwards, the she ran out to the hall..
Me: 3oshaaa!! Come baack!
I ran behind her. I freaked out when I lost her through the kids who also stayed in the same halls..
Me: 3osha.. 3osha.. Oh nonono!!
I found her playing with some plant placed at the end of the hall..
Me: 3oshaa! U need a bath now!
As I was scolding, I saw 7amad coming..
Me: Hehe.. Hey..
7amad: Hey.. Your floor?
Me: Yeah..
7amad: Noo! Seriously!?
Me: Yup! Our room..
I pointed at the last door in the hall..
7amad: Oh!
He pulled out a card and opened the door beside the plant placed.
Me: See you later then!
I had 3osha changed and sleeping, the hall slowly got calmer as mothers started calling their children to bed. I was in pjs as well, but I had a hard time sleeping thinking about Khalid's surgery..
Midnight cravings made it even beyond impossible to sleep. I picked up the phone on my bedside and called 7amad's room..
Someone picked up: Aloo?
A sleepy, deep voice replied.
Me: 7amad?
I whispered not to wake yado or 3osha up..
Person on the phone: Dgeega, 7amad goom, bnayh tbak 3al phone.
I wore a sarcastic smile.. Idiot. NOT IN A MILLION YEARS. Hah! I'd rather die and not even over my dead body will I ever be with 7amad that way.. Ye5! What was I even thinking!
Forgetting I was on the phone, 7amad interrupted my thoughts..
7amad: Yes Amal, what's wrong?
I heard a yawn.. At the time I'd forgotten he wasn't listening to my disgusting thoughts.. I got mad..
Me: Ye5! I hate you a9lan maba shay. Bye.
I Hung up and got into uggs and wore a hoodie over my pjs. Thinking about food I opened the door and scaring the hell out of me, 7amad was yawning, yet again, in front of me.
I gasped..
7amad: e7lfy enty bas you wake me up to remind me you hate me..
Me: Hehe.. I need food..
7amad: Call room service, why me?
He looked so tired, his eyes glistened from yawning..
7amad: Let's go to the lounge, they serve cheesecake now..
He was in a white under shirt, grey sweatpants and a black slipper..
Me: I never saw you this way..
7amad: Yeah I'm dressy even in my sleep. C'mon, I'm too tired to change..
Khalid:
Tests, checkups, more tests, and a lot of blabber about the surgery. Yeah, the doctor wanted to comfort me, but I didn't really care that much.
All I did was ping Mai a thousand times, but I never got a reply.
I was having the surgery done the next day, I needed anything from Mai, even if it was a hate message, anything.
Father: Go to bed Khalid.
Me: Enshallah..
He was laying down on the couch, he'd gotten sheets and a pillow to spend the night by my side.
I was woken up early to be changed and handled. My father had already gotten up, and most importantly, Mai was there..
She came forward and held my hand..
Mai: Whatever happens..
Me: The calls, I thought I lost you..
Mai: You didn't lose me, I lost my phone in the airport.. Our flight was delayed, but I promised to be by your side..
She kissed my hands, and let go as I was taken into the surgery room..
Amal:
Mai closed her eyes and turned around..
Me: Mai..?
She was playing with a golden bracelet around her wrists while shrugging.
Me: Father, what's going to happen?
Mai whispered: He'll either roll his wheelchair down the aisle or walk it towards me.. Either way I'll be there, waiting..
When she looked at me, she was already tearing up..
Friday, June 29, 2012
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Cursed With Beauty (39)
Post note:
I'm surprised to reach this far, and sharing my story with you means the world to me.. Silent readers, I'd love to hear from you.
Love, C.B
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Previously:
Amal: I pushed the brakes too fast.
Khalid: Mai won't answer me..
S3eed: I can't believe they drove to the stables!
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S3eed:
Amal and Joojoo already left, I took my bike to the stables.. I started doubting Amal's story.
What if Amal and that jerk planned the entire thing and seeing him wasn't just a coincidence ?
I knew all the farms around ours, but I've never had a good look at the ones by the stables..
I stopped my bike halfway and pulled the keys with me. I walked to the stables..
I remembered they said they returned, driving on a rocky road.. I walked back trying to figure out exactly where they found him.
Wheel tracks on the rocks, broken glass steps away, I finally found where they fell off.
I looked around, it was a road that lead to endless farms.. How could Amal ever come across him coincidentally?
I stopped for a second and turned around to the sound of horses trotting.
Ahmad, the stable manager, and the jerk were both on horses..
Ahmad: S3eed, did you get your bike back?
Me: Yeah..
Ahmad: Who was she?
Me: .. Ahmad, you don't care.
Ahmad: I'm sorry.. She was just..
Amal's guy gave me an angry look and continued horse riding.
Me: Ahmad, why's he here?
Ahmad: Their farm's close. He's been a horse rider ever since he was a child.
Amal:
At Mr. Marwans Meelas I sat with Mai beside me..
Mai: This is going to haunt me forever..
Me: What will?
Mai: My past. It's not the happiest, nothing to be proud of, it's not easy.
Me: You do know Khalid already accepts that, right?
Mai: Poor thing.. It's not his fault, yet people aren't going to let him be easily..
Me: But you're willing to let the past behind!
Mai: The rest of the world won't! I don't want him to go through all that!
Me: Khalid is your fiancé, not your boyfriend. He's given so much to be with you, no one forced him.
Mai: I don't understand how the hell he even decided it was me!
Me: Well..
I told her what really happened.. I told her about his admiration towards 3asha, and how he loves her now. How Mr. Marwan planned it all. She was hurt, she cried too..
Mai: I knew it.. It's always 3ashah! They just settle for me when they can't get to her.
Me: but-
Mai: Amal.. Can you let us work the rest out?
Me: Sure..
I left late that night..
Back home Yado was sitting with baby 3oshah, how was crawling around the living room.
Me: 3oshaaaaa!!
I picked her up and she started blabbering to me.
Yado: Amal, where have you been? It's late! A very inappropriate time for a young lady to be out.
Me: I'm sorry, I was at Mai's.. They had some problems I had to fix..
As I walked with baby 3osha to my room, I over heard Khalid talking on the phone in his room..
Khalid: But.. Mai.. No! Mai.. Mai listen to me.. Mai! No!
As I stood he opened his door.
Khalid: What did you tell her!?
Me: The truth.
Khalid: No one wants the truth! You weren't meant to tell her that!
Me: Khalid! Calm down and talk to me once you're okay again!
Khalid: Calm down!? I think I just lost the best thing that ever happened to me!
Khalid:
Everything was wrong, and Amal just gave me more to worry about. How can I fix all of this!?
I needed Mai, and the flight being the next day, I had no time to get to her.
I pulled my clothes out the closet, when all I wished was to drown in bed and hate everyone.
Packing heartlessly, carelessly.. I didn't care about my legs, I wanted Mai to understand..
Amal came into my room..
Amal: Khalid..
I looked at her, and the guilt she expressed was too much for me.. I sighed and let her in.
Amal: Here, let me help.
She took the shirts from my hand and folded them into the suitcase..
Amal: How many shoes?
Me: Doesn't matter.
Amal: 5?
Me: I'm not walking anyways!
Amal: that's right.. So 5.
Me: Amaaal ..
Amal: I try to help, but I end up making everything worse.. It's not like I intend this.. At some point.. Mai had to know this..
Me: I was only hoping I got to tell her.. Amal.. Pack up and lock the luggage, tomorrow will be chaotic.
Amal: Nshalla.. I'm sorry.
She left..
S3eed:
Dad and I drove to Amal's house to drive them to the airport.. Only once we got there was I able to sit with her..
I knew she had something going on with that jerk, I knew they were dating! I just had to hear it from her.
Me: So.. Now I know why you like the farm so much..
Amal: Oh really! Tell me.
Me: That bastard's farm is two turns away.
Amal: What!? What are you talking about?!
Me: I know where his farm is.
Amal: I didn't know, I told you it was an accident!
How much denial do we have to go through..
Me: Just tell me the truth.
Amal: I lied to you not once! You're just too stupid to accept the truth.
Amal:
He pulled my arm, but I pushed it away. I was too exhausted of those interrogations. Nothing was going on, yet he insisted.
I ran to the ladies' room and started wiping away the tears that ran down my face when I got accused.
A little girl came up to me..
Girl: You're pretty!
I laughed once and started crying again.
Girl: Why are you crying?
Me: Because I'm pretty, I'm crying.
Girl: You want to be ugly?
Me: Ugliness is the most beautiful thing ever.
Girl: Is it okay if I was ugly too?
Me: Yes! Of course!
Girl: Thank you pretty lady!
She hugged me and ran out.
I got back to father and the rest..
S3eed: Don't leave them without telling them where you are again Amal, we thought we lost you.
Me: Yeah.. Sure.
I couldn't wait until I got on that plane.. A thousand miles away from the devil himself. I hated him, so much.
I'm surprised to reach this far, and sharing my story with you means the world to me.. Silent readers, I'd love to hear from you.
Love, C.B
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Previously:
Amal: I pushed the brakes too fast.
Khalid: Mai won't answer me..
S3eed: I can't believe they drove to the stables!
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S3eed:
Amal and Joojoo already left, I took my bike to the stables.. I started doubting Amal's story.
What if Amal and that jerk planned the entire thing and seeing him wasn't just a coincidence ?
I knew all the farms around ours, but I've never had a good look at the ones by the stables..
I stopped my bike halfway and pulled the keys with me. I walked to the stables..
I remembered they said they returned, driving on a rocky road.. I walked back trying to figure out exactly where they found him.
Wheel tracks on the rocks, broken glass steps away, I finally found where they fell off.
I looked around, it was a road that lead to endless farms.. How could Amal ever come across him coincidentally?
I stopped for a second and turned around to the sound of horses trotting.
Ahmad, the stable manager, and the jerk were both on horses..
Ahmad: S3eed, did you get your bike back?
Me: Yeah..
Ahmad: Who was she?
Me: .. Ahmad, you don't care.
Ahmad: I'm sorry.. She was just..
Amal's guy gave me an angry look and continued horse riding.
Me: Ahmad, why's he here?
Ahmad: Their farm's close. He's been a horse rider ever since he was a child.
Amal:
At Mr. Marwans Meelas I sat with Mai beside me..
Mai: This is going to haunt me forever..
Me: What will?
Mai: My past. It's not the happiest, nothing to be proud of, it's not easy.
Me: You do know Khalid already accepts that, right?
Mai: Poor thing.. It's not his fault, yet people aren't going to let him be easily..
Me: But you're willing to let the past behind!
Mai: The rest of the world won't! I don't want him to go through all that!
Me: Khalid is your fiancé, not your boyfriend. He's given so much to be with you, no one forced him.
Mai: I don't understand how the hell he even decided it was me!
Me: Well..
I told her what really happened.. I told her about his admiration towards 3asha, and how he loves her now. How Mr. Marwan planned it all. She was hurt, she cried too..
Mai: I knew it.. It's always 3ashah! They just settle for me when they can't get to her.
Me: but-
Mai: Amal.. Can you let us work the rest out?
Me: Sure..
I left late that night..
Back home Yado was sitting with baby 3oshah, how was crawling around the living room.
Me: 3oshaaaaa!!
I picked her up and she started blabbering to me.
Yado: Amal, where have you been? It's late! A very inappropriate time for a young lady to be out.
Me: I'm sorry, I was at Mai's.. They had some problems I had to fix..
As I walked with baby 3osha to my room, I over heard Khalid talking on the phone in his room..
Khalid: But.. Mai.. No! Mai.. Mai listen to me.. Mai! No!
As I stood he opened his door.
Khalid: What did you tell her!?
Me: The truth.
Khalid: No one wants the truth! You weren't meant to tell her that!
Me: Khalid! Calm down and talk to me once you're okay again!
Khalid: Calm down!? I think I just lost the best thing that ever happened to me!
Khalid:
Everything was wrong, and Amal just gave me more to worry about. How can I fix all of this!?
I needed Mai, and the flight being the next day, I had no time to get to her.
I pulled my clothes out the closet, when all I wished was to drown in bed and hate everyone.
Packing heartlessly, carelessly.. I didn't care about my legs, I wanted Mai to understand..
Amal came into my room..
Amal: Khalid..
I looked at her, and the guilt she expressed was too much for me.. I sighed and let her in.
Amal: Here, let me help.
She took the shirts from my hand and folded them into the suitcase..
Amal: How many shoes?
Me: Doesn't matter.
Amal: 5?
Me: I'm not walking anyways!
Amal: that's right.. So 5.
Me: Amaaal ..
Amal: I try to help, but I end up making everything worse.. It's not like I intend this.. At some point.. Mai had to know this..
Me: I was only hoping I got to tell her.. Amal.. Pack up and lock the luggage, tomorrow will be chaotic.
Amal: Nshalla.. I'm sorry.
She left..
S3eed:
Dad and I drove to Amal's house to drive them to the airport.. Only once we got there was I able to sit with her..
I knew she had something going on with that jerk, I knew they were dating! I just had to hear it from her.
Me: So.. Now I know why you like the farm so much..
Amal: Oh really! Tell me.
Me: That bastard's farm is two turns away.
Amal: What!? What are you talking about?!
Me: I know where his farm is.
Amal: I didn't know, I told you it was an accident!
How much denial do we have to go through..
Me: Just tell me the truth.
Amal: I lied to you not once! You're just too stupid to accept the truth.
Amal:
He pulled my arm, but I pushed it away. I was too exhausted of those interrogations. Nothing was going on, yet he insisted.
I ran to the ladies' room and started wiping away the tears that ran down my face when I got accused.
A little girl came up to me..
Girl: You're pretty!
I laughed once and started crying again.
Girl: Why are you crying?
Me: Because I'm pretty, I'm crying.
Girl: You want to be ugly?
Me: Ugliness is the most beautiful thing ever.
Girl: Is it okay if I was ugly too?
Me: Yes! Of course!
Girl: Thank you pretty lady!
She hugged me and ran out.
I got back to father and the rest..
S3eed: Don't leave them without telling them where you are again Amal, we thought we lost you.
Me: Yeah.. Sure.
I couldn't wait until I got on that plane.. A thousand miles away from the devil himself. I hated him, so much.
Friday, June 15, 2012
Cursed With Beauty (38)
Short note:
Thanks to everybody for your patience, every shred of support, your criticism, your comments. Enjoy!
Much love, CB..
Previously:
Khalid: She had it all, but she never had love.
Amal: We're staying over at 3amy Rashed's farm!
S3eed: She ended up wrapping her arms around my neck, hiding her face right under my chin..
Joojoo: I'm so sorry..
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Khalid:
After trying to reach Mai, I couldn't.. She must've needed her space, so I gave her just that.. She was ashamed, regretful, but I didn't blame her for what happened last night..
Amal:
In leopard printed baggy pants, a black oversized sweater, red bottomed heels, and a plain black scarf, I walked to the back of the farmhouse where they all were chilling.
Me: Where's 3amy?
S3eed: He had to go to work, but I know how to BBq!
Salma had just met Joojoo and they seemed to hit it off great, so I sat on the chair next to S3eed.
S3eed: Should I get everything ready now?
Me: Get the bbq heated, I'll get the food.
S3eed: Oh, in the freezer.
I walked back inside to the kitchen, Joojoo followed me..
Joojoo: I think I love your cousin!
Me: S3eed!? Seriously!
Joojoo: Amal! I meant Salma!
Me: My God! Made my heart drop.
Joojoo: Idiot!
She helped me with the meat and we got back to S3eed.
I got out to Salma unveiling a huge stereo. Songs played so loud, S3eed rocked to the beat, Joojoo clapped and shouted while I simply laughed..
I woke up before the sun came out. I was in the living room with Joojoo beside me. I didn't remember how I got there, in fact I was in the same clothes of the night before.
I got up, picking up my heels from the floor I tip toed to the room I usually stayed in.
I freshened up, and from the window I saw the garage doors open. One of the farmers just left, but beside the cars parked a beautiful four wheeled motor bike.. I ran back to Joojoo cautiously..
Me: Joojoo get up!
Joojoo: What now?
Me: There's a bike outside!
Joojoo: Amal what time is it? Why are you up?
She had a hard time getting up..
Me: It's just 5 AM! C'mon get up!
Joojoo: Amaaal! Why?!
Me: Get up! Pray el fajr we're going on a ride!
Joojoo: Okay, okay bas chub shway.
She got up in her own pace, and I helped her to the bathroom.
I guessed it was S3eed's bike, so I snuck into his room to find it's keys. I was dark, curtains closed, so I couldn't find my way easily. I turned the flash light through my phone..
It wasn't in his dresser, nor the closet. I slowly got to his bed's side tables, but when I flashed the light on him, I realized he was in just shorts.
He had his arms crossed, shivering.. The air conditioner was blowing right at him.. Suddenly, Joojoo shocked me by hugging me from behind.
I gasped, and S3eed rolled over.. I exchanged facial expressions with her until she understood what I was looking for.
She didn't help, she just stood right in front of him. When I finally found the key I pinched her and ran out..
Me: Joo, to the garage.
I whispered from outside his bedroom door.
S3eed:
The girls slept on the couches outside last night.. I managed to pull them into the living room, I wasn't able to do more than that though.
I was sleeping but I felt soft hands pulling the sheets on my body. I was cold but I was too tired to move. Those same warm hands held my face gently and they slid off smoothly.
I barely heard thuds from my closets, but when I got up the closet doors were closed and the door was shut. I went back to sleep.
Amal:
I was already on the bike when Joojoo came with a helmet and a biker jacket. I took the helmet and she wore the jacket.
We got out the farm and I drove and drove and kept driving. The wind blew against my chest, I felt like my heart being liberated. Joojoo had one arm to the side, the other around my waist.
We stopped beside a horse stable. Joojoo got off and started petting one.
A man came out of no where going: S3eed! Haven't I told you not to come around here!? You know the horses are afraid.
He walked straight up to me shouting and cussing, so I took the helmet off.
He paused wearing a confused expression.
Man: The hell are you?
I was still in surprise of having a stranger shout that way to me, I just stared.
When I heard dog barks I got worried.
Man: Oh no, I let Lucy out..
Joojoo hopped on, and I drove so fast. Joojoo held on tight, I closed my eyes and screamed but the helmet held it in. Joojoo laughed so hard but it stopped being funny when Kovu stood far in front of us.
I pushed the breaks too fast.
S3eed:
They weren't anywhere near the farm, and my bike was gone. I drove around with the farmer in car looking for them. At lunch time we had to go back home. I gave up..
In the farmhouse, they were sitting on the couch looking almost guilty..
Me: Where have you been?
Amal: We took your bike..
Me: When was that?
Amal: Dawn.
Me: Why didn't you ask me?
Amal: Because we're not allowed to drive them.
Me: Because you could hurt yourself!
Amal: Umm..
Me: What?
Amal: Well..
Me: WHAT!?
Amal: We kind of flipped over..
Me: WHAT!? How? Did you hurt. Yourself?
Amal: My arms are bruised, Joojoo jumped off but her palms bled..
Me: Joojoo..?
Joojoo: I landed on broken glass..
Me: How did you even do that!?
Amal: Lucy was let go..
I couldn't believe they went to the stables! I was extremely mad, I didn't want any trouble so I just stormed to my room. After calming down I when to the kitchen to have lunch with them. Amal left the table to eat alone.
Me: Listen, I'm sorry..
Joojoo: Don't blame Amal, I don't even know why I let her do it..
Me: Could you tell me what happened?
She started talking about finding that boy I once beat up, standing in the middle of the rocky road. I didn't tell them about the bad breaks on my bike..
Me: Well.. Are you ok?
Joojoo: Yeah, be worried about Amal..
She finished her lunch and left.
Amal:
Joojoo picked up her phone, and she looked at me with the most freaked out expression ever. Once she hung up she screamed.
Joojoo: Amal! Mom wants to pick me up! Amaaal !!
Me: Call her back tell her we'll get you back home! Now!
I sat back thinking about Kovu.. He stood straight, I looked into his eyes and for the first time I saw a look that wasn't familiar..
How his face changed when I took the helmet off, on the ground I lay holding the pain in my arm..
Suddenly Khalid called me..
Me: Hey! What's up?
Khalid: Where are you?
Me: At the farm.
Khalid: I need your help..
Khalid was out with Mai when one of the men she dated came up to her.. "You're settling for this? A piece of trash?" Mai was enraged about it, though Khalid said he didn't even care about that comment. Mai held Khalid's hand tighter when he said that.. Khalid thinks she might be feeling guilty..
Thanks to everybody for your patience, every shred of support, your criticism, your comments. Enjoy!
Much love, CB..
Previously:
Khalid: She had it all, but she never had love.
Amal: We're staying over at 3amy Rashed's farm!
S3eed: She ended up wrapping her arms around my neck, hiding her face right under my chin..
Joojoo: I'm so sorry..
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Khalid:
After trying to reach Mai, I couldn't.. She must've needed her space, so I gave her just that.. She was ashamed, regretful, but I didn't blame her for what happened last night..
Amal:
In leopard printed baggy pants, a black oversized sweater, red bottomed heels, and a plain black scarf, I walked to the back of the farmhouse where they all were chilling.
Me: Where's 3amy?
S3eed: He had to go to work, but I know how to BBq!
Salma had just met Joojoo and they seemed to hit it off great, so I sat on the chair next to S3eed.
S3eed: Should I get everything ready now?
Me: Get the bbq heated, I'll get the food.
S3eed: Oh, in the freezer.
I walked back inside to the kitchen, Joojoo followed me..
Joojoo: I think I love your cousin!
Me: S3eed!? Seriously!
Joojoo: Amal! I meant Salma!
Me: My God! Made my heart drop.
Joojoo: Idiot!
She helped me with the meat and we got back to S3eed.
I got out to Salma unveiling a huge stereo. Songs played so loud, S3eed rocked to the beat, Joojoo clapped and shouted while I simply laughed..
I woke up before the sun came out. I was in the living room with Joojoo beside me. I didn't remember how I got there, in fact I was in the same clothes of the night before.
I got up, picking up my heels from the floor I tip toed to the room I usually stayed in.
I freshened up, and from the window I saw the garage doors open. One of the farmers just left, but beside the cars parked a beautiful four wheeled motor bike.. I ran back to Joojoo cautiously..
Me: Joojoo get up!
Joojoo: What now?
Me: There's a bike outside!
Joojoo: Amal what time is it? Why are you up?
She had a hard time getting up..
Me: It's just 5 AM! C'mon get up!
Joojoo: Amaaal! Why?!
Me: Get up! Pray el fajr we're going on a ride!
Joojoo: Okay, okay bas chub shway.
She got up in her own pace, and I helped her to the bathroom.
I guessed it was S3eed's bike, so I snuck into his room to find it's keys. I was dark, curtains closed, so I couldn't find my way easily. I turned the flash light through my phone..
It wasn't in his dresser, nor the closet. I slowly got to his bed's side tables, but when I flashed the light on him, I realized he was in just shorts.
He had his arms crossed, shivering.. The air conditioner was blowing right at him.. Suddenly, Joojoo shocked me by hugging me from behind.
I gasped, and S3eed rolled over.. I exchanged facial expressions with her until she understood what I was looking for.
She didn't help, she just stood right in front of him. When I finally found the key I pinched her and ran out..
Me: Joo, to the garage.
I whispered from outside his bedroom door.
S3eed:
The girls slept on the couches outside last night.. I managed to pull them into the living room, I wasn't able to do more than that though.
I was sleeping but I felt soft hands pulling the sheets on my body. I was cold but I was too tired to move. Those same warm hands held my face gently and they slid off smoothly.
I barely heard thuds from my closets, but when I got up the closet doors were closed and the door was shut. I went back to sleep.
Amal:
I was already on the bike when Joojoo came with a helmet and a biker jacket. I took the helmet and she wore the jacket.
We got out the farm and I drove and drove and kept driving. The wind blew against my chest, I felt like my heart being liberated. Joojoo had one arm to the side, the other around my waist.
We stopped beside a horse stable. Joojoo got off and started petting one.
A man came out of no where going: S3eed! Haven't I told you not to come around here!? You know the horses are afraid.
He walked straight up to me shouting and cussing, so I took the helmet off.
He paused wearing a confused expression.
Man: The hell are you?
I was still in surprise of having a stranger shout that way to me, I just stared.
When I heard dog barks I got worried.
Man: Oh no, I let Lucy out..
Joojoo hopped on, and I drove so fast. Joojoo held on tight, I closed my eyes and screamed but the helmet held it in. Joojoo laughed so hard but it stopped being funny when Kovu stood far in front of us.
I pushed the breaks too fast.
S3eed:
They weren't anywhere near the farm, and my bike was gone. I drove around with the farmer in car looking for them. At lunch time we had to go back home. I gave up..
In the farmhouse, they were sitting on the couch looking almost guilty..
Me: Where have you been?
Amal: We took your bike..
Me: When was that?
Amal: Dawn.
Me: Why didn't you ask me?
Amal: Because we're not allowed to drive them.
Me: Because you could hurt yourself!
Amal: Umm..
Me: What?
Amal: Well..
Me: WHAT!?
Amal: We kind of flipped over..
Me: WHAT!? How? Did you hurt. Yourself?
Amal: My arms are bruised, Joojoo jumped off but her palms bled..
Me: Joojoo..?
Joojoo: I landed on broken glass..
Me: How did you even do that!?
Amal: Lucy was let go..
I couldn't believe they went to the stables! I was extremely mad, I didn't want any trouble so I just stormed to my room. After calming down I when to the kitchen to have lunch with them. Amal left the table to eat alone.
Me: Listen, I'm sorry..
Joojoo: Don't blame Amal, I don't even know why I let her do it..
Me: Could you tell me what happened?
She started talking about finding that boy I once beat up, standing in the middle of the rocky road. I didn't tell them about the bad breaks on my bike..
Me: Well.. Are you ok?
Joojoo: Yeah, be worried about Amal..
She finished her lunch and left.
Amal:
Joojoo picked up her phone, and she looked at me with the most freaked out expression ever. Once she hung up she screamed.
Joojoo: Amal! Mom wants to pick me up! Amaaal !!
Me: Call her back tell her we'll get you back home! Now!
I sat back thinking about Kovu.. He stood straight, I looked into his eyes and for the first time I saw a look that wasn't familiar..
How his face changed when I took the helmet off, on the ground I lay holding the pain in my arm..
Suddenly Khalid called me..
Me: Hey! What's up?
Khalid: Where are you?
Me: At the farm.
Khalid: I need your help..
Khalid was out with Mai when one of the men she dated came up to her.. "You're settling for this? A piece of trash?" Mai was enraged about it, though Khalid said he didn't even care about that comment. Mai held Khalid's hand tighter when he said that.. Khalid thinks she might be feeling guilty..
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Cursed With Beauty (37)
Before I continue:
School & exams took a lot of my time, but that did not stop me from writing. I apologize for the delay.. Enjoy!
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Previously:
Joojoo: He's leaving!
Saif: I guess I don't love her.
Khalid: Was she just practicing what she's always been doing?
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Amal:
I was at the library to return one more book I actually read voluntarily.. I noticed that there was only one window there..
Huge, old, scratched.. It was dusty, behind intact curtains.
With three fingers, I swiped to see what the view was of..
It was of a dark colored hair, wide wondrous smile, a face that lit up at my sight..
I was pulled back by shyness, I had a smile I couldn't get rid of, nor could I hide.
When I looked again, he still smiled, only to the ground.. He looked up again and stared deep into my eyes.
I crossed my arms to stop my stomach from fluttering, took a deep breath as I'd forgotten to do so.. My Kovu was there, I didn't need air.
Khalid:
Mai... I second guessed, tried with all my power to see if she really meant anything she said.
I didn't know whether I should trust her or not, I didn't want to be a fool. I simply couldn't fall for her.
Father: Does Amal know? Don't forget to tell her to start packing.
Me: Nshallah..
Father: And you know that Mr. Marwan will join us there?
Me: Yes.
Father: This determines so much of your future, I hope you understand.
Me: This makes me or breaks me..
Father: But you're strong. Whatever happens you remain my son, my pride and joy.
I really didn't know what there was to feel proud of. I wouldn't blame him if he thought of me as a failure. My immature behavior and irresponsibility lead to the loss of not just my ability to move, but also the ability to be all I can be.
I took my body for granted and I only knew what it's worth only after losing it.
S3eed:
Saif was all packed up, ready to leave. I just didn't want my summer to begin with the departure of a good friend.
I smiled to his face, sighed in disappointment only when he looked away. I also couldn't imagine how Joojoo felt.
She must've been confused and broken. I felt twice as bad when I thought of her.
Me: When are you coming back?
Saif: I might not.
Me: What about Christmas break?
Saif: I don't know.
Me: Won't you ever visit?
Saif: What about my girlfriend?
Me: Since when did you have one?
Saif: I don't, but until then I should have one.
Me: Joojoo will miss you..
Saif: She'll forget about me. Shut up. Why are we talking about her anyways..
In the middle of the airport we stood, his dad was checking the luggage in.
It was the final goodbyes, but it wasn't just us saying goodbye..
It was a wife saying goodbye to her husband, a girl waving with tears in her eyes as she saw her sister leave, and then there were us..
Standing still like statues, smiling but we're scared. We didn't know what would happen next, if we'd be meeting up again. So would we keep in touch? It seemed that Saif wasn't even going to try..
Amal:
In my room she cried, ice cream buckets and the TV on playing a chick flick.. All I managed to do was listen to her, & hug her when she fell apart.
When she finally calmed down, she began..
Joojoo: He hates me.. I hate myself..
I stayed quiet in hopes of her subconsciously explaining why she's saying that.
Joojoo: I don't know..
I hugged her silently..
Joojoo: You lost someone too, but I never see you cry.. You're so strong.. How?
Me: She's with God now, she's far from pain and hurt.. If I miss her, I try to remember everything I hated about her.. Sometimes when they leave, only then do you remember how much good they brought to you, but you'd also forget all the bad..
Joojoo: There's not a flaw in him.. What bad is he?
Me: Well.. Maybe you could've stayed with him until you got bored of him.. Problems would be created, you might hate him! You could've fought like married couples do.. A happy ending just the beginning of misery..
Joojoo: But with all that, at some point you might just move on knowing you need them.
Me: I needed her! I needed a female figure, especially at that time. If it wasn't tough enough she's gone, no one was there to help me.
Joojoo saw me tearing up, and so she joined me.. We slept that night like babies.
Khalid:
I visited Mr. Marwan's meelas at night as Mai invited me for dinner. When she talked, my thoughts shouted. When she smiled, my thoughts grinned. I wasn't sure at all about what she had in mind..
Mai: Khalid what's wrong?
Me: I don't.. I just can't think straight..
Mai: How about we go out somewhere?
Me: I can't.. Umm.
Mai: Oh! Don't worry, I can drive..
Me: What a husband I must be..
I sighed hopelessly..
Mai: You are the first to let me give instead of get..
Me: Give? What do you mean?
Mai: The other.. Guys.. The ones I've dated, they'd never let me drive because I was a girl.
They wouldn't let me pay for dinner because I was a girl, but with you Khalid I can prove I can do everything you can, and it's not even optional!
When she said that, a brand new point of view appeared in my head.. An independent woman who didn't need me, but wanted me. She had it all, but she never had love.
It felt weird knowing that if I wasn't there, she'd still manage. I could depend on her to manage a house one day..
So, we went..
Amal:
The next day, I got a call from 3amy Rashed..
3amy: Mabrooook Amaal! You're done!
Me: Allah ybark feek!
3amy: We'll sleep over at the farm tonight! We got junk food and we'll barbecue outside at night!
Me: Sounds good! When should I come!?
3amy: I'm coming to pick you up right now!
Me: Now!? But my friend's with me..
3amy: She sleepover if she wants! Your room at the farm has 2 beds anyways!
Me: Great, I'll tell her..
I hung up.. Joojoo was still sleeping.
Me: Joojoo, Joojoo? Can you get up?
Joojoo: Hmm?
She opened one eye..
Joojoo: What's wrong?
Me: Nothing, umm we're sleeping over at S3eed's farm..
Joojoo: WHAT!? My mother will never allow it!
Me: Umm, tell her you're sleeping over at our house again!
Joojoo: I don't know.. I-
Me: Oh! C'mon it's not summer everyday!
Joojoo: But-
Me: But nothing! Call her, now!
Joojoo did so, her mother didn't mind as usual..
Me: YES YES! Now pack up!
Joojoo: Wait I didn't get my entire closet you know!
Me: Take anything from mine.
We packed real quick, and the next thing we knew, we were in 3amy's vintage Range Rover ..
3amy: I updated it! Look there's a radio on it now!
I laughed and turned in up to let the music express our joy, I wore my Dior sunglasses, circular with the cat eye edges, taking that exact moment in.
S3eed:
They came, I went to open their doors. Amal jumped out, she knew how high the car was. Joojoo, who I was surprised to see, hesitated to get off.
I offered my hand, she took it, but her foot slipped. She ended up with her arms around my neck, hiding her head right under my chin, and the rest of her I carried.
Joojoo whispered: Omg! Omg I'm so sorry..
I put her down, but her eyes were still closed.
Me: Are you okay?
Joojoo tried to avoid looking at me: Yeah, I'm sorry..
She ran to Amal who was already by the farm house's door..
School & exams took a lot of my time, but that did not stop me from writing. I apologize for the delay.. Enjoy!
----------------
Previously:
Joojoo: He's leaving!
Saif: I guess I don't love her.
Khalid: Was she just practicing what she's always been doing?
---------
Amal:
I was at the library to return one more book I actually read voluntarily.. I noticed that there was only one window there..
Huge, old, scratched.. It was dusty, behind intact curtains.
With three fingers, I swiped to see what the view was of..
It was of a dark colored hair, wide wondrous smile, a face that lit up at my sight..
I was pulled back by shyness, I had a smile I couldn't get rid of, nor could I hide.
When I looked again, he still smiled, only to the ground.. He looked up again and stared deep into my eyes.
I crossed my arms to stop my stomach from fluttering, took a deep breath as I'd forgotten to do so.. My Kovu was there, I didn't need air.
Khalid:
Mai... I second guessed, tried with all my power to see if she really meant anything she said.
I didn't know whether I should trust her or not, I didn't want to be a fool. I simply couldn't fall for her.
Father: Does Amal know? Don't forget to tell her to start packing.
Me: Nshallah..
Father: And you know that Mr. Marwan will join us there?
Me: Yes.
Father: This determines so much of your future, I hope you understand.
Me: This makes me or breaks me..
Father: But you're strong. Whatever happens you remain my son, my pride and joy.
I really didn't know what there was to feel proud of. I wouldn't blame him if he thought of me as a failure. My immature behavior and irresponsibility lead to the loss of not just my ability to move, but also the ability to be all I can be.
I took my body for granted and I only knew what it's worth only after losing it.
S3eed:
Saif was all packed up, ready to leave. I just didn't want my summer to begin with the departure of a good friend.
I smiled to his face, sighed in disappointment only when he looked away. I also couldn't imagine how Joojoo felt.
She must've been confused and broken. I felt twice as bad when I thought of her.
Me: When are you coming back?
Saif: I might not.
Me: What about Christmas break?
Saif: I don't know.
Me: Won't you ever visit?
Saif: What about my girlfriend?
Me: Since when did you have one?
Saif: I don't, but until then I should have one.
Me: Joojoo will miss you..
Saif: She'll forget about me. Shut up. Why are we talking about her anyways..
In the middle of the airport we stood, his dad was checking the luggage in.
It was the final goodbyes, but it wasn't just us saying goodbye..
It was a wife saying goodbye to her husband, a girl waving with tears in her eyes as she saw her sister leave, and then there were us..
Standing still like statues, smiling but we're scared. We didn't know what would happen next, if we'd be meeting up again. So would we keep in touch? It seemed that Saif wasn't even going to try..
Amal:
In my room she cried, ice cream buckets and the TV on playing a chick flick.. All I managed to do was listen to her, & hug her when she fell apart.
When she finally calmed down, she began..
Joojoo: He hates me.. I hate myself..
I stayed quiet in hopes of her subconsciously explaining why she's saying that.
Joojoo: I don't know..
I hugged her silently..
Joojoo: You lost someone too, but I never see you cry.. You're so strong.. How?
Me: She's with God now, she's far from pain and hurt.. If I miss her, I try to remember everything I hated about her.. Sometimes when they leave, only then do you remember how much good they brought to you, but you'd also forget all the bad..
Joojoo: There's not a flaw in him.. What bad is he?
Me: Well.. Maybe you could've stayed with him until you got bored of him.. Problems would be created, you might hate him! You could've fought like married couples do.. A happy ending just the beginning of misery..
Joojoo: But with all that, at some point you might just move on knowing you need them.
Me: I needed her! I needed a female figure, especially at that time. If it wasn't tough enough she's gone, no one was there to help me.
Joojoo saw me tearing up, and so she joined me.. We slept that night like babies.
Khalid:
I visited Mr. Marwan's meelas at night as Mai invited me for dinner. When she talked, my thoughts shouted. When she smiled, my thoughts grinned. I wasn't sure at all about what she had in mind..
Mai: Khalid what's wrong?
Me: I don't.. I just can't think straight..
Mai: How about we go out somewhere?
Me: I can't.. Umm.
Mai: Oh! Don't worry, I can drive..
Me: What a husband I must be..
I sighed hopelessly..
Mai: You are the first to let me give instead of get..
Me: Give? What do you mean?
Mai: The other.. Guys.. The ones I've dated, they'd never let me drive because I was a girl.
They wouldn't let me pay for dinner because I was a girl, but with you Khalid I can prove I can do everything you can, and it's not even optional!
When she said that, a brand new point of view appeared in my head.. An independent woman who didn't need me, but wanted me. She had it all, but she never had love.
It felt weird knowing that if I wasn't there, she'd still manage. I could depend on her to manage a house one day..
So, we went..
Amal:
The next day, I got a call from 3amy Rashed..
3amy: Mabrooook Amaal! You're done!
Me: Allah ybark feek!
3amy: We'll sleep over at the farm tonight! We got junk food and we'll barbecue outside at night!
Me: Sounds good! When should I come!?
3amy: I'm coming to pick you up right now!
Me: Now!? But my friend's with me..
3amy: She sleepover if she wants! Your room at the farm has 2 beds anyways!
Me: Great, I'll tell her..
I hung up.. Joojoo was still sleeping.
Me: Joojoo, Joojoo? Can you get up?
Joojoo: Hmm?
She opened one eye..
Joojoo: What's wrong?
Me: Nothing, umm we're sleeping over at S3eed's farm..
Joojoo: WHAT!? My mother will never allow it!
Me: Umm, tell her you're sleeping over at our house again!
Joojoo: I don't know.. I-
Me: Oh! C'mon it's not summer everyday!
Joojoo: But-
Me: But nothing! Call her, now!
Joojoo did so, her mother didn't mind as usual..
Me: YES YES! Now pack up!
Joojoo: Wait I didn't get my entire closet you know!
Me: Take anything from mine.
We packed real quick, and the next thing we knew, we were in 3amy's vintage Range Rover ..
3amy: I updated it! Look there's a radio on it now!
I laughed and turned in up to let the music express our joy, I wore my Dior sunglasses, circular with the cat eye edges, taking that exact moment in.
S3eed:
They came, I went to open their doors. Amal jumped out, she knew how high the car was. Joojoo, who I was surprised to see, hesitated to get off.
I offered my hand, she took it, but her foot slipped. She ended up with her arms around my neck, hiding her head right under my chin, and the rest of her I carried.
Joojoo whispered: Omg! Omg I'm so sorry..
I put her down, but her eyes were still closed.
Me: Are you okay?
Joojoo tried to avoid looking at me: Yeah, I'm sorry..
She ran to Amal who was already by the farm house's door..
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