Note:
To SAL, it's tomorrow, & this one's for you.
Love, C.B.
Previously:
Amal: Joojoo and I are no longer friends.
7amad: If you have no time for someone, you make it
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Khalid:
I came back from work, but Mai wasn't home. After I called her I knew she was shopping with her sister. I've always wanted the type of wife who would welcome me home and make me feel comfortable, but Mai had so many things to do that it never happened.
I had lunch, and as I put my head on the pillow, the door opened and she entered.
Me: When are you going to be home before I am?
Mai: How many times will I have to tell you to hang your kandoora?
Me: I don't even ask you to prepare lunch, all I ask is for you to serve it!
Mai: Why don't you listen to me?
Me: When are you going to obey me!?
When I saw the tears in her eyes about to roll, I felt like precious crystals where about to fall. I got up, held her face, wiped the tears that reached her cheeks with my thumb. Nose to nose, eye to eye, I said: I always failed to let you know, but I'll try.. You've grown closer to me than even this. We're too strong together to fall apart.
I sealed my promise with a kiss that explained more than I could ever say.
Amal:
At break time, I sat down with Salma to have lunch. Out of a sudden, I saw Joojoo run to me with great fear in her eyes.
Joojoo: I have to tell you something..
She noticed Salma then looked at me again.
Joojoo: Alone.
We walked away, then she began.
Joojoo: We have to find S3eed, I have a bad feeling.
Me: Why? What happened?
S3eed has been suicidal over the weeks. He sent Joojoo a goodbye message the day before. I ran back to Salma.
Me: Salma can your driver pick us up right now? Joojoo forgot her project back home.
Salma nodded and called immediately.
We couldn't find him at uncle's house. Once we got back in the car, we asked the driver where S3eed was.
"He went to the farm this morning. I took him there after we dropped Salma off at school."
It was one of those extremely sunny days that no one would think of going to a farm on. S3eed planned well. When we got there, we both ran to his room. It was locked, but we knocked uncontrollably.
S3eed: Who is it?
We didn't reply. I heard footsteps that lead farther, and another door getting locked. I knew he headed to the bathroom.
Joojoo: What about the windows?
The farmhouse was of only one floor, so we got out and headed to his room's window. Luckily, it was unlocked and we finally broke it.
I ran to the bathroom door and tried to open it. S3eed unlocked the door, with a pill box in his hand he shouted: What do you want more of me!? Just let me go! It'll be easier for the both of us. Not just us, but everybody else. My sister, my own father. I don't want to fight against the entire world anymore!
I shivered at how cold his words were. He seemed to alone, something I was feeling at the time.
Me: It wasn't me who knew you needed saving. I'm not "the one" for you S3eed, she is.
I left as Joojoo stepped forward.
Friday, October 19, 2012
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Cursed With Beauty (47)
Previously:
Amal: Joojoo's having a gathering with the new girls.
S3eed:
"You should have protected her from yourself."
Mai: You're a part of me now, she has to realize that..
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Amal:
We were to have brunch at Joojoo's, but as I waited for Salma to pick me up, yadoh began..
Yadoh: Where are you going?
Me: To Joojoo's, we're just going to have brunch.
Yadoh: No one gathers at such a time, you're not going anywhere!
Me: Salma is coming now to pick me up.. It's too late.
Yadoh: Tell her you're spending the day here, she's family anyways.
Me: What about Joojoo? I already confirmed!
Yadoh: How is it my problem? Just cancel.
I was very annoyed, although it wasn't worth talk back to. I just called Salma to update her, she was fine with spending the day at home. I also called Joojoo, apologizing for not making it.
The next day, at school, I met up with Joojoo and Salma before heading to class... Salma revising for some test she had, and Joojoo blabbering about the gathering we missed.
Joojoo: Well anyways, I'm off to see Dalool and Reem now, see you later!
Later, I never saw her. Joojoo got caught up with the new girls, and we spent days without speaking to each other. I got busy, and so did she, but slowly, we drifted so far apart we acted as if we never knew each other. One day I was walking down the hallways of school, looking at my class mate's familiar faces, then Joojoo with the new girls. It was as if their smiley faces withheld monsters, because every time I passed someone by, I'd feel a rush that would make my heart beat faster, and cause goosebumps all over my body. The people around were as if ghosts, staring at me, half there, half invisible..
I ran to the bathroom stalls and locked myself in one of them. For the first time ever, I was estranged from what used to be my "second home" or so they called school. I took deep breaths as I tears somehow blurred my vision. I wiped them off and got out the stall. In front of one of the sinks stood one of the new girls Joojoo hung out with. Her hair in a low pony tail, her shaila around her neck, and she wore thick eyeliner.
I looked at her as she smiled aimlessly..
"I'm reem, Amal, right?" she said..
Me: Yeah..
Reem: I heard a lot about you!
Me: Oh?
I walked out the bathroom as she followed me..
Reem: You know Dalal and I were so lucky to have met Joojoo! I don't really know how we would've survived without her.
Me: Joojoo is a lifesaver.
Reem: I know right!?
As we chatted, 7amad came and stood right in front of me. I looked up at him embarrassed, then lowered my gaze, smiling at the ground.
7amad: What is this? No good morning? What happened to the manners Amal?
he came closer to my face, but I took a step back. I saw Reem's face beamed up with curiosity.
Me: Come on, let's go.
7amad: Go where? You're coming with me!
Me: I have a class 7amad.
7amad: A class you're going to miss out on, to the library Amal, now.
I excused myself to Reem and followed him.
Me: I hate you! I haaate you! I'm dead now, Reem will think of it all wrong now!
7amad: Doesn't matter, I know who you're ending up with anyways.
Shocked by what he said, I gave him a look as my face reddened at the thought of it..
7amad: Why did you cry?
Me: Cry? When?
7amad: You know better, tell me.
Me: It's nothing.
7amad: So if I ask Joojoo, she'll know?
Me: No, I haven't told Joojoo.
7amad: I know, you don't even talk to Joojoo anymore.. What's wrong?
Me: Nothing! We're just busy.
7amad: Even when you have no time, if it's someone you care about, you'll make time for them..
Amal: Joojoo's having a gathering with the new girls.
S3eed:
"You should have protected her from yourself."
Mai: You're a part of me now, she has to realize that..
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Amal:
We were to have brunch at Joojoo's, but as I waited for Salma to pick me up, yadoh began..
Yadoh: Where are you going?
Me: To Joojoo's, we're just going to have brunch.
Yadoh: No one gathers at such a time, you're not going anywhere!
Me: Salma is coming now to pick me up.. It's too late.
Yadoh: Tell her you're spending the day here, she's family anyways.
Me: What about Joojoo? I already confirmed!
Yadoh: How is it my problem? Just cancel.
I was very annoyed, although it wasn't worth talk back to. I just called Salma to update her, she was fine with spending the day at home. I also called Joojoo, apologizing for not making it.
The next day, at school, I met up with Joojoo and Salma before heading to class... Salma revising for some test she had, and Joojoo blabbering about the gathering we missed.
Joojoo: Well anyways, I'm off to see Dalool and Reem now, see you later!
Later, I never saw her. Joojoo got caught up with the new girls, and we spent days without speaking to each other. I got busy, and so did she, but slowly, we drifted so far apart we acted as if we never knew each other. One day I was walking down the hallways of school, looking at my class mate's familiar faces, then Joojoo with the new girls. It was as if their smiley faces withheld monsters, because every time I passed someone by, I'd feel a rush that would make my heart beat faster, and cause goosebumps all over my body. The people around were as if ghosts, staring at me, half there, half invisible..
I ran to the bathroom stalls and locked myself in one of them. For the first time ever, I was estranged from what used to be my "second home" or so they called school. I took deep breaths as I tears somehow blurred my vision. I wiped them off and got out the stall. In front of one of the sinks stood one of the new girls Joojoo hung out with. Her hair in a low pony tail, her shaila around her neck, and she wore thick eyeliner.
I looked at her as she smiled aimlessly..
"I'm reem, Amal, right?" she said..
Me: Yeah..
Reem: I heard a lot about you!
Me: Oh?
I walked out the bathroom as she followed me..
Reem: You know Dalal and I were so lucky to have met Joojoo! I don't really know how we would've survived without her.
Me: Joojoo is a lifesaver.
Reem: I know right!?
As we chatted, 7amad came and stood right in front of me. I looked up at him embarrassed, then lowered my gaze, smiling at the ground.
7amad: What is this? No good morning? What happened to the manners Amal?
he came closer to my face, but I took a step back. I saw Reem's face beamed up with curiosity.
Me: Come on, let's go.
7amad: Go where? You're coming with me!
Me: I have a class 7amad.
7amad: A class you're going to miss out on, to the library Amal, now.
I excused myself to Reem and followed him.
Me: I hate you! I haaate you! I'm dead now, Reem will think of it all wrong now!
7amad: Doesn't matter, I know who you're ending up with anyways.
Shocked by what he said, I gave him a look as my face reddened at the thought of it..
7amad: Why did you cry?
Me: Cry? When?
7amad: You know better, tell me.
Me: It's nothing.
7amad: So if I ask Joojoo, she'll know?
Me: No, I haven't told Joojoo.
7amad: I know, you don't even talk to Joojoo anymore.. What's wrong?
Me: Nothing! We're just busy.
7amad: Even when you have no time, if it's someone you care about, you'll make time for them..
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Cursed With Beauty (46)
Previously:
Salma: Father knows it was S3eed!
Khalid: What did I do?
Amal: 7amaaad! Why do you have to ruin everything!
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Khalid:
Mai wouldn't let me near her, at lunch she only sat in front of me eating silently.
I never knew a woman could hold back from speaking, but I was just so confused with what it was I did wrong.
After lunch, she got up to take her plate to the kitchen, so I followed her..
Me: Mai? What's wrong?
She didn't look me in the eyes, she just pulled me back to our room and closed the door..
Mai: What happened last night?
Me: Umm.. Amal needed me to drive her, why?
Mai: What do you think I spent the night doing?
I realized that I left her all alone..
Mai: I sat in the living room with your grandmother, whom I never really got to know, just waiting for you.
Your grandmother offered to show me the way to our room, but I refused thinking you'll be back soon. How more embarrassing could it have been for me?
Me: She's my little sister, she needs me.
Mai: But you drop everything you have and go to rescue her.. Including me.
She seemed so worked up about it, I held her in my arms just to calm her down.. She held on to my shirt, crying as she continued..
Mai: You're a part of me now.. She has to realize that..
Amal:
Walking between classes with Salma, I spot two new girls walking with Joojoo.. Joojoo was showing them around & I was able to tell since the girls seemed lost.
New girl: So this is our class? Cool, thank you!
Joojoo smiled and came towards me..
Me: New girls, what're they doing here?
Joojoo: Dalal & Reem, they just transferred here..
Me: Which one's which?
Joojoo: Slightly taller, thinner too, is Dalal.. So they came from the same school.
Me: All you got?
Joojoo: So far, get to class now, we'll talk later.
Salma was a silent ghost, something of my shadows, which I didn't approve of.
Me: Salma, walk beside me.
She did so.. Somehow it seems that Salma almost lost her voice. She's been to school for almost 2 weeks, yet no one knew about her.
Typical Salma would've had a party that was going to make not only remembered, but also unforgettable. Ever since she came she's brought no attention upon herself, instead walking behind my shadow.
Later that day I called her up..
Me: Salma.. How about we have a party?
Salma: Why?
Me: To have fun! You'll get to know a lot of new people!
Salma: No need for that, I enjoy your company..
Me: Just me & Joojoo?
Salma: I understand I'm your cousin, if you don't want me around just tell me.
Me: That's not the case at all!
Salma: Then pay no attention to me, it's alright.
S3eed:
I was allowed no where near my own sister, even though she was the source to all the problems in our house. Father was brutal with his punishments, and I blamed Salma for everything ..
Every time I look at her, it's as if she doesn't get it. She's made my life miserable, she was the entire problem.
I was at the farm with father. Walking by the garages, I stared long and deep at my bikes. I was not allowed to ride any of them. The keys were with him, & fun was forbidden..
Father: Dream on.
I looked away, then lowered my head.
Father: Chin up, what are you doing?
There was no pleasing him..
Father: Those bikes won't make you a man, I will.
It felt like my father questioned me. I was furious, but I knew walking away was disrespectful & childish. I on the other hand, was not.
Me: It was not my fault.
Father: Men don't hit women.
Me: I am a man! I have authority over her! I'm supposed to protect her.
Father: You should've protected her from yourself.
He was called from work and shortly after, he left.
Through it all, Joojoo & I had been texting from time to time.
Sometimes it felt like talking to her was my only hope. It was relieving to have her around..
Remembering her, I took my phone out & called her..
Amal:
I was laying in bed with 3osha sleeping beside me when I got a text from Joojoo.. She said she was having a gathering with some classmates, and asked me to bring Salma with me.
Joojoo always had her ways to know people. She's always been popular with so many random people that it gets exhausting sometimes.
I asked Salma if she was going, then went to bed..
Salma: Father knows it was S3eed!
Khalid: What did I do?
Amal: 7amaaad! Why do you have to ruin everything!
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Khalid:
Mai wouldn't let me near her, at lunch she only sat in front of me eating silently.
I never knew a woman could hold back from speaking, but I was just so confused with what it was I did wrong.
After lunch, she got up to take her plate to the kitchen, so I followed her..
Me: Mai? What's wrong?
She didn't look me in the eyes, she just pulled me back to our room and closed the door..
Mai: What happened last night?
Me: Umm.. Amal needed me to drive her, why?
Mai: What do you think I spent the night doing?
I realized that I left her all alone..
Mai: I sat in the living room with your grandmother, whom I never really got to know, just waiting for you.
Your grandmother offered to show me the way to our room, but I refused thinking you'll be back soon. How more embarrassing could it have been for me?
Me: She's my little sister, she needs me.
Mai: But you drop everything you have and go to rescue her.. Including me.
She seemed so worked up about it, I held her in my arms just to calm her down.. She held on to my shirt, crying as she continued..
Mai: You're a part of me now.. She has to realize that..
Amal:
Walking between classes with Salma, I spot two new girls walking with Joojoo.. Joojoo was showing them around & I was able to tell since the girls seemed lost.
New girl: So this is our class? Cool, thank you!
Joojoo smiled and came towards me..
Me: New girls, what're they doing here?
Joojoo: Dalal & Reem, they just transferred here..
Me: Which one's which?
Joojoo: Slightly taller, thinner too, is Dalal.. So they came from the same school.
Me: All you got?
Joojoo: So far, get to class now, we'll talk later.
Salma was a silent ghost, something of my shadows, which I didn't approve of.
Me: Salma, walk beside me.
She did so.. Somehow it seems that Salma almost lost her voice. She's been to school for almost 2 weeks, yet no one knew about her.
Typical Salma would've had a party that was going to make not only remembered, but also unforgettable. Ever since she came she's brought no attention upon herself, instead walking behind my shadow.
Later that day I called her up..
Me: Salma.. How about we have a party?
Salma: Why?
Me: To have fun! You'll get to know a lot of new people!
Salma: No need for that, I enjoy your company..
Me: Just me & Joojoo?
Salma: I understand I'm your cousin, if you don't want me around just tell me.
Me: That's not the case at all!
Salma: Then pay no attention to me, it's alright.
S3eed:
I was allowed no where near my own sister, even though she was the source to all the problems in our house. Father was brutal with his punishments, and I blamed Salma for everything ..
Every time I look at her, it's as if she doesn't get it. She's made my life miserable, she was the entire problem.
I was at the farm with father. Walking by the garages, I stared long and deep at my bikes. I was not allowed to ride any of them. The keys were with him, & fun was forbidden..
Father: Dream on.
I looked away, then lowered my head.
Father: Chin up, what are you doing?
There was no pleasing him..
Father: Those bikes won't make you a man, I will.
It felt like my father questioned me. I was furious, but I knew walking away was disrespectful & childish. I on the other hand, was not.
Me: It was not my fault.
Father: Men don't hit women.
Me: I am a man! I have authority over her! I'm supposed to protect her.
Father: You should've protected her from yourself.
He was called from work and shortly after, he left.
Through it all, Joojoo & I had been texting from time to time.
Sometimes it felt like talking to her was my only hope. It was relieving to have her around..
Remembering her, I took my phone out & called her..
Amal:
I was laying in bed with 3osha sleeping beside me when I got a text from Joojoo.. She said she was having a gathering with some classmates, and asked me to bring Salma with me.
Joojoo always had her ways to know people. She's always been popular with so many random people that it gets exhausting sometimes.
I asked Salma if she was going, then went to bed..
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