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Previously:

Khalid's wife finally gives birth, but he doesn't remember his sister's name..
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Amal:

I reminisce the happy day that Khalid named Osha, we had just gone through the incident with Aisha. It was the first time a girl had such an impact on Khalid. Is it weird that he ended up marrying Aisha's sister? Maybe, but Mai's been all the characteristics Khalid lacked. She was in a way, his completion.
I'm not going to say they were perfect, their differences got in the way a few times, but it certainly made them stronger together.

I pity Khalid for all the precious memories he lost.. Will he ever gain them back? No one could tell..
after filling him in on who baby Osha was, and how she was named, we video chatted Khalid the next day.

"Okay Khalid, so it's a boy, what are you going to name him?' I start. "We aren't sure between my father or Mai's. We're thinking either Khalifa jr. or Marwan Jr." We pause for a second when grandmother starts to tear up. I know she missed them so much, and that she'd rather have Mai and the baby close to us. It wasn't easy on anyone.

Saeed:

It felt like this. I was a completely normal human being with others trying to convince me I was not normal. It got to a point where I believed that I was a dangerous person. On one of those 6 am jogs with my father, we took the time to talk about it. Was I insanely violent? At least I didn't think so..
To me, it just wasn't fair. All I wanted was to know whether Joojoo was okay, and I didn't even get the answer..

Frustration choked me. Was I ever going to get an answer? I never thought I'd be doubting Joojoo. Usually it was that she kept other people's secrets, not her own. I felt guilty about it. I knew it wasn't right to spy on her, I didn't, but the pain I went through jerked the tears out of me.  I wouldn't have cared if she weren't mine. Signed papers, and I've claimed territory. I prayed it wasn't what I thought it was..

Khalid:

We weren't allowed to stay in the hospital for long enough. Right after they taught her how to handle the baby with delicacy we were basically kicked out. Anna and Nicolas never left our side though. They often laughed at our ignorance, but it was alright. He often cried, loudly. There weren't many distincitve features to compare whether he resembled me or her more.
When we were off to work, Mr.Nicolas would drop Anna off at the hotel, and they'd spend time together until we were back again. Anna would often ask, what did you name him? We chose Khalfan. Not her father's name, nor mine. No more arguments. Khalfan Khalid, I liked the sound of it.

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Khalid:

I shifted from side to side whenever I heard Mai scream from the other room. "Push! Push!" Some french doctor would shout every two seconds. Mr. Nicolas and Anna, his wife, had just arrived. "Khalid!" Anna panicked. "Go to her! Help her!" "No thanks.." I was terrified. "She needs you now more than ever, Khalid. Go hold her hands." Mr. Nicolas pats my shoulder. I step inside and they dress me up in some kind of scrubs, face mask, and gloves.

As soon as I see her, I kiss her forehead while still wearing my face mask, and apologize for what she's going through. "Breathe, umm, I don't know!" "Tell her to push!" Her doctor shouts at me. "Okay, do that Mai!" Wait, PUSH WHAT! I pat the sweat on her forehead dry and she breathes heavily. " I.. I can't go on like this.. I can't.." She cries. "Come on Mai, you can, I promise you can. Please, for me.." One final wale, and it's out. A tiny human creature covered in blood and other things I really didn't understand.

He cried uncontrollably, and as soon as we heard his cry, we both cried along with him. He was wrapped up in a blue blanket and carefully placed in her arms.

Amal:

We got a call from Khalid! It's the greatest news I've heard in a while.. Is it impatiently through class, texting Khalid on how to create a Skype account.. When I got back from school, I texted him to set up the laptop so we can all see each other.  I sat with my grandmother and Osha on my lap as we video chatted. "Hey.. Who's that?" Khalid asks, pointing on his screen. Our smiles fade.. "Who do you mean? I'm Amal.." He chuckles. "I know that stupid, who's the kid on your lap?"
I look at my screen and I see Mai's worry obviously painted across her face..

I ended the video chat and got to my phone instead. "Your sister Khalid, you named her! How could you forget!" I texted him. "I'm sorry, I think I forgot, what's her name?" he replied.

This was frustrating, Mai should not have been alone with my brother, and yet there was no way I could get there.. They needed watching over.. 

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To the Readers:
It's a struggle to pull the words out of me, I know exactly what I want to happen, I just don't know how to let you know. Writing about the wounds was just as torturous as experiencing them.. Apologies for the lack of courage.. Still hopeful <3!

Saeed:

Looking at JooJoo, I felt kind of betrayed. She could keep all the secrets she'd like, but not something that concerns us. She sat on the corner of the couch with her arms crossed. She looked everywhere except at me. Impatient, I placed my hand on the back of her knee and pulled her so she was laying down on the couch. In one move, I punch the couch right beside her head. "TALK!" I shouted when she closed her eyes to avoid confronting me.
I was furious, but she wasn't going to say anything. Frustrated, I look up only to find the librarian ready to kick me out. I held my head from exploding. I lost my temper and the only way I managed was to flip the tables I came across on my way out. I was also directed to principle's office after that.

After some calming down, my father had dragged me to a counsler. At his office, I wrestle my father trying to get out. " I don't need this, I'm not crazy." I struggle to get out of father's grip. "Let me go!" He threatens and slams the door behind him.

"Hello Saeed." He starts. "Don't look at me like that." I order. "You have 45 minutes, if you'd like to lie them down silently you can." "How could you ever help me." "I can't if you won't communicate properly.." He fixes his tie and smoothly seats himself. "You can either let me help, or you can go on this way, your choice completely."

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Epiphanies:
Having been through quiet a bit, I'm coming back with a deeper understanding of my purpose to share my story with you.
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Previously:

Saeed: "Can you please tell me something? Have I done you wrong?"

Amal:
Dalal was the kind of girl with great looks, and grades, but her social life? No one really knew much about her.

Khalid:
Her hands won't let go of mine, I didn't want to let go either.
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Khalid:

"Could you please remember to put your clothes in the basket Khalid?"

I see Mai trying to reach down to grab my shirt. "Sit down, I'll do that in a second."
"It's as if I have to teach you everything all over again!" She seemed frustrated. I help her to the closest chair. " Hey, calm down, I'll do anything you want me to, just relax.." She inhales her tears away, and my heart grips. "Mai come on!" I pick the shirt up and throw it in the basket. "Come on let's go down, they're probably close.

We meet Mr. Nicolas and Anna, his wife. Mai definitely needed another woman to talk to after all this time being locked up in the hotel room. Mr. Nicolas was a grumpy french guy whose belly seemed to start swelling as if Mai's condition. Anna on the other hand was the complete opposite. She seemed so lively that, without her, I concluded that Mr. Nicolas would've died of negativity.
The first discussion over dinner came about were children. Anna seemed to have so many good tips to share with Mai. "Any idea how you handle that?" I whispered to Mr.Nicolas. "Buy a sofabed in the livingroom, oh, and college funds." "That's it?" I wonder. "Yup, that's almost it."

After a great dinner, we go out for a walk around the city. Anna and Mai instantly clicked, walking around arm in arm while windowshopping. "She's a beautiful woman you have, Khalid!" I smirk. "I guess so. I don't know how I got so lucky." I didn't remember either, I guess the smirk disappeared along with that.
"That doesn't matter though, the question is how are you planning on keeping her?" I pause for a second.
"Wait, how do I do that?" He chuckles at my ignorance. "She's here now because you need her. The two of you all alone in Paris? Of course she does too, but once you're home again, always give her a reason to need you."

Amal:

I sit around my friends as they chat and I start to zone out, I bring myself out of this point of view into a stranger's. Salma's laying her head down on my lap, Joojoo gossiping, Dalal's gasping at what she's hearing, and then there's me, appreciating the sight that is my friends. "Sit up Salma, the boys are coming." She sits up to fix her shaila. Shy as usual, she pulls on her long sleeves to cover her hands, it's so weird how she's changed.
Saeed, 7amad, and someone else who made my heart skip a beat walk up to us.
Saeed approaches us, and I thought he'd call Salma, or Joojoo out, but he called my name. "Yeah?"
Joojoo's curious, I could tell. "Come to the library." He knew she was listening too.

"There's something very wrong with Joojoo, what is it?" authorative, very angry Saeed begins. "I don't really know.." I shrug. "She's been acting so secretive, and not her gossip kind of secrets, there's something wrong,  I can feel it in my gut."
"Why don't you just ask her? Don't walk around it, face it." "I'm trying, but she's not saying anything, and apparently, not to anyone. I'm having nightmares Amal, help me out."

"Calm down, she's your wife you know. Talk to her, there's only so much I can do." I didn't want to be a part of it, but he seemed so frustrated.."Well, I.." I hear the library's huge door creak. "Hey!" Joojoo hugs Saeed. "What's going on?" The curiousity is killing her.
Saeed pulls her away, then walks away.
"Saeed come back." He stopped. "Sit down, talk. Joojoo, speak up, but I have nothing to do with this." I walked away.

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Previously:

Khalid: "I don't remember marrying you to remember what I wore that night."

Amal:
"The only difference is that you know he likes you back.." What..?

Saeed: I decide to ask Joojoo where she'd like to study later on. "America." She replies.. I remember that Saif, my friend and her ex, moved there about a year or two ago

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Saeed:

With the second semester's report card in hand, it's an average of 95.5.. This mark meant a lot of opportunities. "How much did you get, Joojoo?" Joojoo stares passively at her report card. "75." She throws it on the table.
"I thought we agreed on America? You really have to study harder.."
"Don't judge me academically! I do what I can."
She's been so short tempered, I had to stop talking, I couldn't..

I pulled her from her arm and into my embrace. "Look me in my eyes." I order her, she looks away. "What's wrong?" She shrugs my question off..

"Can you please tell me something? Have I done you wrong?" She pushes me away & leaves. I begin to worry..

Amal:
I kept thinking about what 7amad said.. "The only difference is that you know he likes you back.." He does? One of my fears was that it was just an illusion, that I overthought the things that happened..
I sunk into the library's couch while I read a book 7amad had mentioned.

Joojoo, Salma, and Dalal join me.
"For once, I honestly just want to finish reading this book, can I trust you will support me with this mission?"

Joojoo and Salma giggle, then leave. I stare blankly at Dalal. She sits down calmly, pulls out her textbooks, and starts taking notes.
Thin, tall, elegant, & delicate, she was the kind of female men would write poems about. There was something about the size of her wrists that caught my attention every time. She was so thin that even the bracelets she wore were the size of a child's. Round eyes, sharp nose, & narrow, pouty lips. She really was a whole new standard of what I would call beauty.

"What's wrong?" She notices my eyes studying her. "We have a quiz, don't we?" I succeed to make something up. "I just can't trust the teacher with my grades."

She was the kind of girl with great looks, and grades, but her social life? No one really knew much about her. I started to wonder.

Khalid:

I guess I had to live with it, Mai was beautiful, and she did her job perfectly. I had nothing to complain about, except that baby I still wasn't sure I wanted.. I come back from work, and I noticed Mai was bored.
"I invited a colleague and his wife over for dinner tonight, you're okay with that, right?"

"Really?! Is it a meeting or something?" Her face glows with excitement.
"No, I just thought you wanted to meet new people.."
"I do! Thank you!" She kisses me on the cheek.
"Was I allowed to do that too?"
I notice her blush. My face burned, so blunt... "Never mind.."
"You were.." She comes closer, exposing her cheeks to me. My lips barely touch her skin, but I back away. When I notice the disappointed look on her face, I couldn't resist. I surprise her with another one.
"I'm going to get ready." She giggles shyly, but her hands won't let go of mine, I didn't want to let go either..