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School went well for all I cared, a few drops with my marks, but my father kept quiet about it.. It may have been the guilt of handing me more responsibility..

Responsibility I couldn't handle.
It almost seemed that every time I had to study for something important, no one was there to watch baby 3oshah..
With her in my arms and papers all over the room, and do include the textbooks and copybooks I needed.. I was a wreck.
Father recalls the meetings he had the same days I had to study, while grandmother wasn't to blame..
She would watch her for 7 hours until I got back, she deserved the outings she had.
Yadoh: Amal, what do you think about a helper around the house?

I wished that day would never come..
Me: Imayah.. Mom never allowed such a thing in our house.

S3eed: Ever since I started noticing Amal, I've noticed this boy around her, staring at her.. I've seen him around school before, but I've never talked to him..

I asked Saif about him, but he asked why I wanted to know. After explaining he suggested he could be Amal's new boyfriend.
I already hated him.

Khalid:
Mr. Marwan called me saying he wasn't coming to work because of personal reasons. He had a meeting later that day he needed to be rearranged.
I heard sounds that reminded me of when mother stayed at the hospital.. Beeps, nurses talking, announcements and what not..

Me: It's alright, but 3amy if you don't mind me asking; are you in a hospital?

He sighed..

Mr.Marwan: To be honest, my daughter was in a car accident. Crazy girl..

Aisha!?

Amal:
I was on my way to class, late, and father dropped me off far from the entrance.. I walked down the parking space..
I noticed someone behind the dumpster.. I found S3eed & Saif together with Kovu on the ground..
They've kicked him to the ground after singling him out.. I was shocked at what I saw, I didn't know what to do..

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Words spread.. About how different I am, what happened to me, who I am.. My name seemed to fill the air I breathed.

Finding Kovu every morning.. That was my only reason to getting up so early. On his bench having breakfast, playing with his phone, with his friends, he'd look up as soon as I passed by, and smile at, or to whatever he was busy with.

That one second he looked into my eyes, it told me about everything! It told me about how his first day was, what he heard, asking about the rumours..
It was like mind manipulation, we could find each other in our thoughts and actually somehow be connected.. It was the most beautiful thing I knew.

A day came where S3eed texted me.. I haven't spoken to him since the hospital incident..

Bbm:

S3eed: Amal, how are you now?

Me: Alright, why?

S3eed:

I've been hesitating for too long. I started hating having Saif around me. I had to know what's going on.

Me: I just want to know one thing.. Saif and you.. Should I be worried?

Amal:

Sure.. THAT'S why he texts me after an entire month..

Me: S3eed, I'm willing to explain myself.. As long as you won't interrupt me.

S3eed: I won't.

And on with my explanation.. I tried to prove my innocence to him.

Khalid:

Working with Mr. Marwan never got better.. He told me I had a newly-found personality towards my job and how this could have a positive affect on my career. After mother left, sinking myself in work seemed to work out for me.

I already knew after all that happened, a wedding was not an imminent event. Not having my own mother there was worse, but thinking that she might bless me from above brought life into me.

To be honest.. She really was my motivation. I wanted to make sure I could make the money to deserve her.. That Aisha was going to be mine.

Every time I'd see my 3osha, I'd instantly remember her.. I spoiled 3osha rotten, in hopes of one day being able to do the same to ms.Aishah..

S3eed:

Saif!! How does he do this to my cousin!? I thought he knew.. I knew he knew.. How could he!?

I was furious, but Saif has been my friend since so long..

Bbm:
Me: Saifoh, bsr3a rd 3alay!

*Pings 10 times*

Saif:  I HATE PINGS! NEVER PING AGAIN!

Me: Saif I'm not kidding!

Saif: What's up?

Me: Real quick! What's up with you and my cousin!?

Saif: Whaaat!? Saeed Rashed, you did not just ask me that question! Am I not your soul brother?

Me: I read your name on her phone.. What did you need from her??

Saif: Fine Sa3ood I'll tell the truth.


So Amal was throwing herself at him.. She told him she'd do anything for him, but Saif was quiet for so long, not to ruin her reputation!


Amal has turned into the likes of my sister.. They're as similar as much as they hate each other.

Amal turned out to be a good liar! I almost actually believed her..
I was just glad I didn't tell her how I felt.. What would've happened!

Amal:

I deleted S3eed from my Bbm list.. We both knew it just got us into trouble.. Trouble we didn't have to go through.

It was a Sunday morning and believe it or not I didn't mind it one bit. I got up & got ready.

I reached the school, and as I walked I suddenly felt strange and stopped..
I felt a sudden warm feeling of being hugged, but I was sure no one even touched me.
I looked around and saw Kovu walk from behind me..

I watched him as he closed his hands as if holding another.. He knew how much I wished it was mine in his instead of thin air which I almost grew jealous of..

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Mom was gone, her room was getting cleaned and I didn't even get to see her..

Weeks have passed since the funeral. People who didn't get to visit her at the hospital could only attend the funeral now.. 3osha was in my hands along with the help of grandma.

I only pittied the fact that 3osha couldn't even be celebrated.. She arrived as another member departed.

Grandmother taught me about her bottles and diapers, & I thanked God I wasn't alone..

I once had my earphones on listening to Quran, it was midnight and my thoughts of mother started. I cried myself to sleep that night.

I woke up from a dream that made me run to grandmother for her to explain it to me.

She told me mother was in a better place, she was happy, she wasn't alone.
Her words touched my heart like silk and ever since, I hadn't cried over mother again.

Nights were long & sleep was constantly interrupted. Grandmother used to sleep by my side to help when 3osha cried.

Every two hours there was something to do..
Father could only do so much, 3osha was only in his care when he was free of work.

The first day of school came in as if my life wasn't hectic enough..

School was, believe it or not, my escape from reality.. JooJoo and my books to keep me busy.

Every time I walked down the hall, I heard whispers that brought chills down my spine.. "The girl whose mother died" I was known as just that. "Sure, her mother dies, and she goes to workout at the gym. How human of her." More rumors spread..
It suddenly brought more and more attention. Their pity & hate was nothing I needed.

My new Language teacher heard a bit about me, and in class she decided I should stand in front of everyone to talk about my summer.. So I began:

"I don't know what part of my summer you want to know about, the good one or the bad..
I spent my summer in Dubai since my mother was pregnant, I learned, & I changed.. By the end of summer my mother passed away due to some complications..
She left behind a beautiful little girl. I never got to say goodbye to her, but I realized I don't have to.. As I'll be seeing her.. Later."

The girls were tearing up, some came and hugged me, others with their arms crossed and frowns upon their faces. Their pity didn't last long, their hypocrisy reappeared later that day.

A lot of people seemed to keep their distance from me, for a while I thought I might seem like death walking around..
By the next day...

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S3eed:
I sat down just staring at her profile, she had a song as her pm, and her Dp was of me and baby 3osheh..

I didn't know whether to talk to her or not since I might have jumped into conclusions. As I thought about it, it might not have been the case. Bas how could she throw herself at. Saif!?
My BEST FRIEND!? He's been texting me to go somewhere, acting like nothing's going on.

Saif's first interest wouldn't be girls. I'd say his bikes at the desert would come first. He is a flirt, but just the girls who catch his eyes, then he'd quickly forget.

Amal:

I didn't care about what S3eed thought, but I just wished he had more faith in me. That would've been nice..

I woke up the next day with a headache, I heard my heart beating in my brain. It was too much to handle, all I could do was drink water and sleep it off. Later Khalid texted saying he'll be camping, so I was just going to be alone.

Imayah came in, she has herbs she made me drink, placing a towel of cold water on my forehead.

Grandmother: Rest well.

I nodded and went to sleep.

S3eed:
I tryed bbming her but she didn't answer, I thought she might have been upset & didnt want to talk to me.. I pinged her once & twice but nothing..

Khalid:

I went with my friends to camp at the desert because I needed to escape. Ever since 3ashah I've been hating everyday I'm not with her. Was all this trouble I've gone through for her was for nothing?

Mohammed, one of my friends sat beside me.

Mohammed: Did you talk to your parents about getting married yet?

Me: Almost, but there's no time for that now.

Mohammed: Come on man, there's no freaking out now!

Amal:

Dad called me and my heart sank when I heard him voice unevened. 3amy Rashed was waiting outside for me and grandmother with a hurt look on his face, grandmother, was crying, already in the car.

Nobody wanted to tell me what was going on, nobody spoke. It was just an air of grief and unexplained misery. "Baby 3oshah? Mom?" it hit me at once and I started worrying..

I was taken to the hospital & I ran to the nursery, where baby 3oshah was sleeping calmly..

I didn't find mother in her room.. I only found my father on a chair out in the hallway with both hands on his head.

Me: Dad..?

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Amal:

I didn't want to add S3eed on my list, since it's been all girls, I was very comfortable with having my own picture as a Dp

I thought maybe add him for the pictures and delete him after it.

S3eed: Pending..

I took my phone out and put the battery in after removing it because of Saif's annoyance.

Me: Accepted.

S3eed: Amal, Ur dp.

He looked away. My dp was of myself at a previous party, without a shaila, while I made an ugly face..

Embarrassed I changed it.

Me: Send me th picture, you don't mind having you as a dp?

S3eed: No, it's ok..

Great, S3eed thinks I've turned into those crazy girls who throw away the shailah whenever allowed or when parents aren't around..

Me: It was an all girls party, you weren't supposed to see that Haha!

S3eed: Yeah, sure..

My phone was still notifying me.. Saif didn't give up..

Direct Messages:

Saif: Amal, I'd have gone to the moon & back for you

Saif: would you just reply to me!?

Saif: are you there??
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While reading them silently, S3eed managed to catch his name.

S3eed: Why is Saif texting you? Why do you even know him?

His voice sounded defensive, angered, and uncomfortable..

Me: S3eed, you don't understand!

S3eed:

When I saw Amal's dp, all I thought was.. Well she's a girl, she goes to parties! but when I saw Saif's name on her phone I knew for sure wasn't the innocent girl who was once my best friend.

My cousin had changed for the worse... The thought of it made me so mad! Amal was always treasured by the entire family, there was no tolerance to her degrading herself to anyone!

Amal:

He held my wrists tightly and lead me out the room.

S3eed: How dare you!?

Amal: Don't shout at me when you have not even a clue of what's going on!

I pushed him away from me and held the knob to get in.

He pushed me to the wall.

S3eed: AMAL, answer me now!

I looked away.

I saw Salma walking to us. I pushed S3eed away ow salamt 3alaiha.

Salma: S3eed! I can hear your voice all the way from the coffee shop, what's wrong with you!?

S3eed: Where the hell have you been!! I thought you were through with that shit. We're going home!

Salma: But S3eed! I haven't seen the baby!

S3eed pulled her by her arm as they walked out.