Cursed With Beauty (51)

Previously:
Mai: I'm pregnant.
Salma: S3eed's getting married.
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Amal:
I woke up early on a Saturday, dressed up, then headed to school.
Thought it was a day off, the football club had a match that day.
Salma didn't know who S3eed wanted to propose to. In my head it seemed that he was too young to commit.
As a teenager, the child we have in ourselves collides with the adult we must be, we get confused.
I wasn't sure S3eed was sure of what he was doing.
I headed to the nursery building first to confirm 3osha's registration. After that, I went to the soccer stadium and watched S3eed practice.
It was awkward how his team didn't mind staring. Their passes were horrible, in fact they kept grouping up, staring at me, and talking.
I got up the bench and walked towards S3eed after they were done.
He was sweaty, perhaps the only one out of all the other players. The others were just messing around.
I took out a tissue and wiped his forehead gently, but he pulled it from me and continued on his own.
S3eed: What do you want?
Me: We need to talk.
He raised an eyebrow..
Me: Getting married? This soon?
S3eed: Listen, I.. I don't want to mess it up.
Me: Mess what up?
S3eed: I don't want to play any games anymore. Not that you care, but your existence is enough to depress me.
Me: Marrying someone to get over someone else sounds messed up enough.
S3eed: You never gave me a chance. You'd rather shut me out instead.
Every bit of sadness I've brought upon him turned into guilt and was kept in me.
I always wished I was in control of who my heart chose. If only it was that easy, I would voluntarily give myself up for him. Unfortunately, it wasn't so easy.
What was hard was remembering the names of every single person I rejected.
So many who had my good intentions became something of my enemies, all because of rejection.
As I was being blamed for all of his miseries, I gave up trying to fight it. Whatever would make him a sane person again, I'd do.
Me: Fine, I'm giving you a chance. Impress me.
That's when he held me close to him. My face close to his neck, my hands on his chest. For a second, I closed my eyes and felt peace inside of me. Peace I haven't felt before. It was as if the world paused, just for us..